I get really emotional this time of year. I’m not completely alone, I have extended family that I go to for the holidays, but it’s hard to relate to them because they are just so different from me.

I don’t know, I’ve just been sitting her crying for the last hour because I see my friends with their families and nice parents who are so excited to see them. I’m dog sitting for the sweetest family, the kids are a little older than me and I love seeing their relationship. It makes me happy to see others have that, but it also breaks my heart because I don’t think I’ll ever know what that feels like.

I sometimes cry because I wish so bad that I had a mom I could call and talk to like my friends do. Or someone to follow around while they shop. Or go and watch a show together. I wish I had parents who were excited for all my little achievements.

I’m feeling really alone this year. Maybe I’ll feel different once I have a family of my own, but that’s years away.

For now I’ll just continue to admire the happy families and try and not dwell on my lack of one.

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