I came back to my hometown for a few days and obviously it has been chaotic. A lot of yelling, crying, and everyone feeling hurt. Seeing my brother hurting is always excruciating,I feel powerless and stupid because I can’t help him or the dog. But tonight I was looking at my mother and I thought it must be very painful for her. If she truly thinks we are all against her for sports, if she truly has no clue of her actions. But she must have right? Some clue… Because I never forgave her. I can’t. But I’ve always assumed she was responsible for her actions. Is she tho? I was reading once again about BPD and this doubt… am I being mean to her? Should I ignore her attacks and just be there to help? leaving has been my survival strategy but perhaps I’m being selfish

mandatory cat pic (this one looks just like my first one, I miss her): https://images.app.goo.gl/YeWio7kob5ZPUhTa8