So I try not to vent on to much as I try to not put my crap on other people but this is the only place I could think of that might understand my current situation. So my wife and I have been poly for years now (like over 10) She has a boyfriend that I am super cool with (we all play board games on Friday nights together) and my wife has constantly told me to get out there and find someone but I haven't for a myriad of reasons- it's hard to approach someone and be like "no really my wife said it's ok." Also it's awkward as a guy to approach someone, as I've never really been that good at it. Also I have 0 body image and self confidence. Also I have never really had a "short" relationship. Heck in high school I dated my first girlfriend for 3 years. Anyway there is a party for people in an alternate lifestyle (sex party) this long weekend in the US and I want to bring it up to my wife and see if she wants to go but I'm embarrassed, ashamed, and too nervous to ask her. I know if she didn't want to go she would still tell me to go and encourage it in fact. However, I'm just hung up on my personal image and learned "moral" behaviors. Idk I'm just stuck in a rut and don't know what to do. Thank you all for coming to my Ted talk. /end rant