My husband of over a decade and I recently agreed to open our marriage after about 2 weeks of discussion about it (I know). I completely thought I would be fine, but I'm nowhere close to it. I am anxious to the point where I can't work or concentrate and am oscillating between anxious and avoidant feelings with him. This is after he has gone on just one date. I philosophically want to be ok with this, but I am struggling emotionally. He wants to go on another date, but has said he won't if I'm not approving. But he has also said he doesn't want to stop dating this woman just to turn around in a few months to open up again - which I can totally understand given the challenges for married men in finding dates.

I don't want to limit his autonomy but I also am just not ok. I am trying reading books, trying to be vulnerable with him but I feel a low grade panic almost 24/7.

Help?