I’m going to be honest I just really have no one but my partners to talk to this about an I just wanted to get it out.

I’ve been in a slightly hierarchal poly relationship for 3 years now, and I’ve been saturated due to being in two overlapping triads for the past year. Well one of my partners was being super flaky over the last three months and due to a Facebook error we found out that she had been “cheating” on us for that period of time (she was seeing someone else without telling us it was happening. The four of us were fluid bonded so the only boundary we had all set was that we alert each other of new partners so we could start using protection with that partner)

Obviously, dishonesty has no place in an ethical relationship so I broke up with her and wished her well on her future endeavors.

Well now we’re down to the one triad the girlfriends and metas went out one day (nesting with both partners) and I had realized what its like to have time again! I had spent so much time maintaining three relationships and focusing on my libido that I haven’t had time to myself! I cleaned my pc, I played with the dogs, I 3d printed some stuff,I STREAMED A GAME ON TWITCH FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A YEAR! It’s really made me think about some things.I think I had overestimated my polysaturation point and hadn’t been taking care of me. I’ll be more aware of this in the future. I think I spent so much time trying to be the absolute perfect boyfriend to 3 women that it put me to a point where I was ignoring my own fulfillment. It kinda sucks that I’m missing out on that extra sexual gratification, but I feel like if that’s the only thing missing I don’t really need to date anyway.

Sorry I just wanted to empty my head a bit.