I've been in the dating mood for about 4 months now, and I've been dating online, however I haven't met anyone that I felt was worth meeting in person. Part of that is because my primary and I have been separated for 8 months, and I've been the caretaker for our son. Trying to find childcare has been impossible...

My primary and I have been doing therapy for the last 6 months, and things are getting better between us, I've been staying at my mom's for the last 2 months. Anyways, she said to me, "Enough is enough, you two need to figure this out. I can't take care of you, and I'm too old to be taking care of a 2 year old." So I'm back together with my primary.

I figure as long as we continue doing therapy, and I continue holding boundaries, things will continue to progress in a healthier manner. Things have been going well so far, and our son is so excited to have his dad around everyday.

But that's not the point of this rant.

I am getting really horny...

I feel like I got to be really careful.

I want to say to my primary, "You've had 8 months to work on you and take care of yourself and have time to do what you wanted, when you wanted. Now I'm going to do the same!"

But I'm aware that we just got back together, and that there's a lot that we need to focus on. But I feel that it's okay for me to have some me time as well...

It's been 4 years of devoting my life to him.

I'm focusing on my goals, my needs, and part of those needs is being polyamorous. We've had almost a year of therapy about it, and he's even dating online himself! It's an exciting stage for us.

I don't want to damper my sexual excitement.

And I want to make sure I don't f*** everything that moves 😅

Edit: thank you to the community who helped me understand that my hormones are raging because I'm excited about getting "adult time" not necessarily sex. It's been years since I've been able to get out of the house without the baby attached, and tonight I took myself on a date!