Basically what the title says. After all that’s been going on R has made the decision to leave me for multiple reasons: - stability scares them - their unstable relationship with A feels more natural - They love me but aren’t in love with me - We’re too codependent on each other

These are just a few reasons. R says they’re open to exploring this again later. That we both need time to heal and grow. Yesterday was the first day of not really speaking to each other and it didn’t go well, long story short I ended up getting flowers and taking them to their house late at night. We cried, talked a little, and drove me home. Everything is uncertain, they said they’d reach out to me in a couple days when they’re ready. That they don’t know if this is a break or a break up. That they don’t know when we can start over, considering I don’t start therapy for 2-3 months, that seems like way too long to not do anything in the mean time. That I need to very much respect their boundaries otherwise this won’t work at all. Im scared and I’m worried, it was very much a moment of weakness and I don’t want that to dictate the future. They said I’m better than that and I know it as well…I’m just so scared about losing them for good…