So…. My husband and I are polyamorous, last year, a good friend found out and asked me out once he discovered the whole situation. We had a flirting thing forever but I knew he had reservations so I knew it needed to be his choice. We gave it a good try, but ultimately he decided that it was too complex for him and he couldn’t get over the jealousy, which I completely understand and respect, we’ve remained friends. Heres the issue; I caught feelings. I caught them hard and I care about him deeply. We took a break from talking because it was hard, but he messaged me today and everything came rushing back. I guess I’m just ranting because it hurts and I wish it were different. I really thought 5 months would kick him out of my system and it hasn’t. The minute I saw his face in a picture I melted.

I’m hoping someone has some advice and maybe went through something similar. I don’t want to loose him as a person, but it’s hard to feel platonic.