My (F45) partner and I (42F) have recently taken our steps relationship into a poly relationship. She has recently rekindled her relationship with a past boyfriend from 20 years ago. They have genuine chemistry and I’m excited for them both. He’s still learning about Polly life and isn’t sure if it’s for him.

Im not attracted to men (in general) but I’m open minded enough to never say never. A couple weekends ago I met him for the first time and the three of us spent most of the weekend together.

This weekend I wanted to make sure they had time alone to reconnect without me. I don’t have any other partners and fear I might not find another one. This time part has been more difficult that I anticipated but it has nothing to do with them being together and more to do with me feeling left out or alone.

Communication is paramount in such a life. I don’t feel like I’m holding anything back and assume I have some work to do of my own. I intend on sharing this with my gf and her rekindled interest but want to marinate on this a little bit. Processing all of this data and emotion is hard work but I hope it’s worth it.

Any tips, advice or suggestions on channels to help make finding another partner of my own? Finding another partner in the wild is f’n tough.