TLDR; I met someone online and it did not go poorly. Yaay!!! I have hope again.

So I had given up for the second or third time deciding I am just not fit enough to be dating. I deleted my dating profiles and have just been following the normal routine. Wake up, workout, work, eat at some point, and sleep. Every day is the same. It gets boring but thats life. My wife and daughter are around too I make it sound all bleak sometimes but its not so bad. Anyway I got contacted on reddit by a man who said his wife wanted to talk to me. Once before i got a similar message and it turned out to be a bad situation so i was a bit concerned. Turns out he was being truthful and not pushing her into anything. I have him my snap and she contacted me. Our chat was kind of bland and I talked too much. I get the feeling she and I are both relatively boring to talk to but probably a lot of fun in prson. I even pointed out that i wanted to talk but had no idea what to say and she responded that she gets that feeling all the time too. She lives 45 min away so we can't hang out all the time and we are both looking for someone to spend time with closer to home so we can see each other every day so its not a perfect situation but I have invited her out to game night at my place if she wants to and can get out of her house for a few hours next sturday. I guess i'm just getting my thoughts out. I feel like this is my first real progress toward polyamory. It is not much and we have not met in person yet, we may not if she feels its too far to meet her needs. Still It feels like I might be on the right track and not completely alone looking for connnections in a crowd of busy strangers. This is giving me hope again. I might eventually meet someone!