So I had quite a storied and complicated breakup about a month ago with one of the people I'd been seeing. Made a lot of changes since then to reconnect with my values and move forward to being less reactive and more active in my engagement with myself. This has included things such as quitting my job which had led to levels of burnout that was impacting my significant relationships, reconnecting with my spiritual & mindfulness practice, & just generally slowing down. Still pretty upset about how that breakup went down though for various reasons I'm not detailing hear. But I just went on a walk with another one of the people I'd been seeing, who I was seeing over the same period of time and she's decided she needs to pull back to focus on things with herself. Honestly proud of how well I handled that conversation with her, though things were a lot less emotionally charged then with the other person who I had begun seeing as a partner and who had told me they had wanted certain things which it turned out was not entirely accurate. But there were a number of things said in this most recent one that reminded me of my last one in ways which is hard! Mostly because it was talking about appreciating how much I lean into and try and live in my values which with the first break up occurring coz I failed to live up to those standards in one moment, and that partner having said similar things about me while breaking up with me has bought a lot back. It's hard too because I rarely find myself emotionally connecting on that level with people so to have found two people at the same time and had both of those relationships end at similar times is really impacting me. Definitely going to be taking a break from dating for awhile and just focus on my healing from all this hurt.