Very new to this life and having some struggles with feelings and how I fit in to the relationship. Which I find strange as this all started with standalone relationships with both.

I love my partners. They are amazing and do what they can to make me feel loved, comfortable and needed. But a history of just really shitty partners has me looking at everything they do under a microscope, and overthink everything I do and they do. I m always waiting on the other shoe to drop.

Yes I have talked to them both about this. It’s not easy as when you love someone you don’t want them thinking they cause you any pain. Which they do not. I know it’s just projecting negative thoughts on to people that I have let get close and it’s my shit way to “protect” myself.

I guess this weird post is to give some background so that I can qsee if anyone else out there feels the same or did, and if you have any advice on things that helped you when you started out.

I understand being poly is not for everyone but I believe it is for me. I am happy that I have these two in my life. Not a day will go by that I won’t love them both deeply. So I just want to make sure I put in the work.