And now she's reconsidering dating me because of what happened and has asked for space to process. I understand what she needs and what she's asking for and am happy to give her the space, it just sucks how much damage a mistake can do and how little time it can take to fuck up something promising.

I've done what I can and apologised I'm just scared it won't be enough and this wonderful thing will end with me hurting her because I didn't know enough about her past pains and she hadn't had the time to learn about mine.

Just have to give it space and see what we can figure out when we next meet, but that's not gonna be for a couple of week probably and my hyper-focus won't let go of the situation. Poly ADHD fucking sucks sometimes