I’ve always been poor and have struggled with finances for most of my life. After opening up my marriage and being more exposed to other people’s lifestyles, I find myself considerably envious of the nice things they have and the trips they take. Whereas my life, it pretty much sucks. I’m 40 and just now getting into a career after taking care of my kids because we could never afford daycare on the small salary I could pull. It’s hard for me to even imagine connecting with people that have such luxurious lifestyles because they are just not relatable and I feel so boring with nothing to talk about ever. Struggling today with doubting every choice I ever made in my life. Not sure if I should just give up or start embellishing the truth of my life to seem more interesting. Also, I feel like it limits my opportunities for partners because I have no time or money for LDR’s and barely any time for local relationships.