My partner (F27) doesn't really seem to experience any sort of compersion for when I have relationships/date others. I've really been fostering feelings of compersion within myself for her relationship with the person she's been dating and now am very happy whenever they meet up. I went through this journey to help manage my own feelings of anxiety My partner on the other hand mostly experiences jealousy when I meet with or date other people. I haven't really had another partner for about 2 years after a rather amicable break-up and a sort of on-again/off-again crush dynamic with a friend (who was monogs.). I've recently started to try dating again but am having difficulty with feeling responsible for my partners feelings of jealousy and am unsure how to navigate this. In addition to the starting to try dating again my friend has recently started seeing someone and they have a polyamorous relationship, this has greatly changed the vibe with my friend and we now have a very undefined relationship that I really enjoy but this has led to my partner feeling a great deal of insecurity around this relationship. We talk regularly about these things (weekly check-ins, discussions when one of us is dating etc.) and I know my partner wants me to explore relationships with others but it is hard to feel this is the case right now which is leading to me feeling lots of poly guilt. Idk not seeking anything in particular just wanting to share

Edit: just wanted to say this isn't something that is causing particular grief or difficulty in our relationship. Nor do I think that jealousy or compersion are inherently better or worse then the other. This was just a reflection on some stuff I've been thinking about lately. If you read the post fully you'll understand that the crux of what I struggle with isn't the fact that I feel compersion where she feels more jealousy it's that I have made myself feel responsible for her emotions which is the unhealthy response. I see someone about my mental health and am working on this shit