I'm 52, male, bi, and never married. I've been poly pretty much all my life but had a hard time asserting it and ended up with several partners who knew I was poly but were pretty monogo and jealous. I currently am living in an eco-village where polyamory is common.

Historically I've dated pretty younger women. I did have a gf recently in Berlin who was only 6 years younger and i loved the relationship - very warm and grounding. She wasn't very adventurous sexually or socially though, I wanted to go out and explore the city she preferred TV with her 13 yr old son.

My last gf was 12 years younger and I've dated a lot of women 15 or more years younger. I'm young for my age physically, sometimes mistaken for mid 30s, and I'm into dancing being playful and active, exploring life.

At the community where I am staying I made out with a 32 year old and now am attracted to another 32 year old. The community is completely accepting of this - there is a couple here with a bigger age difference.

I don't expect or want my needs to be met all by one person. I do like to be met sexually but am also excited to be involved with a younger woman who has shown interest in tantra, karezza, nonviolent communication and spirituality that she could learn from me. I am not wanting just sex but really need a loving heart connection from anyone I have sex with. The young woman I am considering getting together with is very physically attractive and fit and our chemistry seems to be a good warm basis in caring and friendship with a deeper layer of very lustful passionate desire I want to explore. She is a strong woman and seems to go for what she wants, expresses her own opinions vocally, and is a loving mom to her two kids.

There aren't really available women my age in this community. The few older women don't seem to have the playful spark that attracts me or to present themselves with sexual confidence and allure. I'd be interested in them more maybe if they had some sexual charm or radiated sensuality but they are more practically oriented moms not really dancing with playful or lustful energy.

So my question is should I just accept that circumstances have put me around 30-something available women or should I somehow try to work against some tendency I have to be with younger women, because I need to become more mature or face some personal growth issue? I do have a sort of peter pan eternal youth thing going on - no kids or home, nomad, live frugally, play a lot, no planning or savings... But I actually like this about myself and don't see being poly as somehow a sign of immaturity and need to settle down or see being with younger women as a problem since I'm also open to older women and men as well just haven't had the opportunity. But I wonder do I have blindspots here and should I hold back and work on this in myself instead of getting together with another woman 20 years younger than me.

Advice?