Im 25f bi and poly. I've had one really bad aweful relationship that practically destroyed me and I'm not sure if I'll ever find love again. However I want to know how does a healthy poly relationship feels like ? I've only seen and heard about toxic ones so it be nice to hear about the bright side of being poly.

I asked for ladies perspective because I too am female and I want to get advice from other women who found healthy loving poly relationships. I know they exist out there but I haven't found my love tribe yet unfortunately. I'm starting to think im just not anyones cup of tea, my ex taught me that I'm ugly and not worth anyone's time and I'm starting to think he's right about that. I've tried poly dating but everyone just wants to hook up. I want a poly RELATIONSHIP. Not just hooking up with random people. I want to get to know my partners and I want to share with them my quite life.

Any advice is much appreciated.