I originally learned that I would like to pursue polyamorous relationships when I was with my ex, who actually fetishized it instead of actually wanting to commit to it. It was ridiculous and ironically we broke up for different reasons- BUT HEY, we’re here to talk positive.

My (18F) new partner, Fern (20-NB), is lovely. So lovely, sweet, considering- Augh I could go all day about that charmer but the main thing is that they are poly as well.

They have no partners at the moment cause of a ROUGH break up (not my buisness to share) but we both connected and hit it off amazingly on a dating app.

I’m here because well I’m scared and excited. Fern is my partner in love and music, they’re mature as they are direct with what they want. They don’t play mind games and I really truly think that they want to be poly with me. I mean they told me they do I’m just not used to the up front generosity this amazing person gives.

I get to be poly with someone who is whiling to dismantle mono norms with me and support one another through this. They are shy but never shy away from communicating either🥹💕💕I’m just…paranoid about messing it up especially cause I don’t know how I’ll react to my metas.

I mean I literally cheered on my ex to find new people and I was happy rather than hurt when they did find that someone. So half of me is confident I’ll be fine and am excited for Fern to get the love they deserve doubled or tripled, I’m just idk a harsh critic to myself.

Also I brought up to them my desired relationship dynamic:

• Parallel Poly (For now), since we’re starting out the relationship poly and are long distance so I’d rather just know about metas before putting ‘talking to the other people that like my partner’ since I’ve never done that before plus its again long distance and it’ll not be much meeting anyways. Once I grow more and make sure to have a grounding and respectful perspective with it, maybe we can do KTP. But I have no personal experience so I’m taking things slow. -The main thing I’m focused on is making sure relationship bonds are developed separately so it’s an easy cut off process when things go wrong and when things go right, it’s awesome💕💕.

Personal things: -Dating couples straight off the bat sounds complicated especially -Vetoing for shallow reasons are weird especially those partners who get jealous and try to control the other person’s support system⁉️ -Making sure if my partner is frequently testing themselves cause I might be Asexual but it’s not like I don’t care.
- Not dating anyone that isn’t clear on what they want

Im so tired, I’ll finish this tomorrow. Good night