My partner (cis man, non-nesting, age 40) and I (cis woman, bi, age 31) have been polyamorous since we first met, about 18 months ago. Before I met him, I was single and poly for about 1-2 years (before then I was a serial monogamist). Over the last 1.5 years, I have been on many first dates, had a few friends with benefits, brief flings/comet situations, and no other serious partners. No one seems to be “sticking”. I can’t even seem to get even first dates with women. I am not on any dating apps (anymore) and I have a very irregular work schedule for polyamorous meetups/consistent gatherings. The polyamorous community is very small where we live. I know I should not compare, but my partner seems to have a much easier time meeting people “in the wild”, even though we work in the same irregular industry. I also find that he is able to establish emotional relationships where mine seem to be mainly about s*x (I want serious/consistent romantic relationships). I am wondering what I could be doing wrong, if anything. Maybe I just need to be patient and hope I meet someone someday? I have literally never had a serious relationship from meeting someone “in the wild”, but I am done with all dating apps. I have some hobbies, but I lead a fairly solitary life because of my travel career. All of this makes me question if I truly am polyamorous.