Wow so my gf is back from a (second) date with a guy. Nothing romantic, pure sex. She is superhappy, i try to be happy for her but on the inside i’m dying. She knows bc i said so but i try to not let it get in the way of her happiness. But f*cking hell i’m doubting everything going from “if this makes her happy and me sad, why am I doing this and why are we together” to “we are awesome but am i not enough, is our sex less? Maybe even bad?” And “i find it hard to love her now?”

I would call myself a happy guy (like when people ask i’m an 8 or 9/10 on happiness scale..) right know i’m a 5

Appointment with therapist has been made but wanted to vent/write it down…

I hope i will get there at one point and can be as happy as she gets.

EDIT: thx for the kind words, we’ve talked about it. Long and openminded. Now we’re both a bit sad. She bc i’m sad and not happy and excited as she is, me bc i pulled her down of her happycloud. But i’m sure we will get there. It’s really crazy how something that i “in theory” understand and support 100% and even emotionally i’m ok with it 90% but then when it hits you, all of that seems to go out the window, and I just panic and doubting.