I've historically had other partners in tandem to my core relationship but this relationship has always been very central to me. I am very in love with my partner, what we have is beautiful but despite having a hell of a lot of therapy and reading just about every poly book out there, I still experience anxious attachment, fear of loss and jealousy. It's not that I think I'm monogamous, I just don't feel like I can do poly anymore. I keep hurting my partner by having the same reoccurant issues. I'm wondering if it's time to admit I'm ENM at most and that I'm not compatible for this life style, that thought alone is killing me, I don't want to let go. Has anyone been in this situation? This possible revelation is too painful to comprehend.