I have a NP and 1 other partner (Aspen) who I was happy with. Aspen’s NP got injured and for a few weeks requires her to do everything around the house, care for him and the kids. Aspen suffer’s with depression and anxiety. Aspen has a NP, me and one other (Birch).

Aspen hit a point where she said she couldn’t give me and Birch the physical and emotional support we deserved and wouldn’t be able to spend time with us because everything got on top of her. I understood.

I think this is where I’m getting paranoid. She has mentioned a couple of things like she won’t be able to do her meets with Birch or when her NP is ok again she won’t have access to her car to see Birch. She hasn’t mentioned anything about the two of us and looking forward to seeing me.

I live less than a 5 min walk away yet she hasn’t come to see me. I get she’s stressed so I’m putting it down to that.

When she hit her stress point, I had said that I don’t want to lose her and she said we would still be friends. I had said we wouldn’t be but I wouldn’t be hanging out with her, texting her, going to events with her, I’m not that sort of friend. She was sad and said that she was a bit worried.

So I have this voice in the back of my mind that she just wants me as a friend and birch is the one she has NRE with and wants. I feel She’s scared of losing the friendship level we have and I’m going to do all these weeks string along. I can’t speak to her about it because she’s so stressed with everything. I don’t know if I’m paranoid? I see her later with our children so I guess I’ll see if she makes any kind of affectionate gestures but I feel like she won’t. I don’t know, she says she’s felt emotionally empty yet she does seem to have something for Birch. She’s always said our friendship is a priority and is first but I don’t feel like that and don’t need the friendship. I want a partner. I think I’m probably feeling emotionally and sexually neglected right now.