I only have one partner rn who is married and what he offers is really limited. I have friends and a decent social life but I am really really really REALLY wanting more sex and more romantic companionship than I have. I go to events, im in local poly meet up groups, I’m on every app and it’s been over a year since I’ve chosen to go past a first date with anyone and even getting to a first date is super rare. The apps are so demoralizing but I think being a solo poly person makes the apps a special hell. The fact that I only want to date people who are poly, on the same page as me on social/political issues when I live in a red area means my dating pool is so painfully small. When i actually do find someone who seems like they may meet my basic criteria and start a conversation with them, 9/10 they’re not poly, they’re some really restrictive flavor of enm that i want nothing to do with. Or they say they’re poly but they’re actually just dating lots of people while looking for a monogamous person to partner with. I’m sad, lonely, horny and frustrated. Or they’re just looking to fuck and assume I’m an easy lay bc poly women are all sluts, don’t you know? Sometimes it really feels like monogamy would be easier and less lonely.