Maybe this isn't really meant for here because I have come to realize from this experience that im not poly, but I want to avoid judgment from the mono subs.

I was in a brief relationship with a married couple with an open marriage. like 6 weeks brief... It was also my first relationship. Yet, despite the brevity of the relationship, the thing is I fell so fucking fast and hard for both of them. It's been like a month now since i fucked things up between us. I've tried dating other people, but I can't find myself attracted to anyone else. I've tried diving into my hobbies. I've tried just focusing on myself. I managed to make it one single day last week without thinking about them, yet that night I freaking dreamed about them. I just feel so pathetic and I just want to get over them so I can move the hell on, but I can't.

How do you do it? Any real advice would be greatly appreciated!

Edit: I have read and will continue to read all of your comments. I just want to thank you all for what you have written and the resources you have shared. They have all brought me a lot of comfort and I sincerely appreciate it! 💜💜