My poly relationship with my Anchor has ended, about 2 weeks ago, by him.

It’s been rough, I’m heart broken. He’s hurting and pushed me as far away as possible, with still co parenting.

Due to mental health things I really need to work on myself, and it’s probably best to do that on my own. Therefore, no matter how much I would love our relationship to work, I know it’s best to be apart.

A couple things…

I was mono and he was poly, which I’m fine with, I just didn’t feel I could balance 2 relationships yet or find one. But now I’m questioning if I want to do poly again, it’s scary to think about being that open and vulnerable with someone else again. I think I’m pushing myself to answer these questions too soon, but I don’t know.

Second, while I’m so happy for him and my meta to still be in a relationship. It hurts and I’m jealous now. It hurts that he still gets to be happy with someone else, while I am alone. Ugh, but I hate that I feel this way. I don’t like it. I want to just be happy for them and not feel any underlying… yuck (for lack of a better term).

I don’t know what I want right now, support or advice, I have no idea. I’ve considered posting and didn’t know what to say.