I’ve been seeing my partner for a while. Over the last couple of months it’s been harder to see her due to other commitments we both have.

Last week I had a free afternoon and I know she does too. I asked her over and she declined. I know she gets anxiety and knew that evening she had an activity which caused it so I left her alone to have self care time. I was a bit sore as I hadn’t spent any alone time with her for a month.

We have an activity this week which her other partner is now coming to. She said that she was supposed to go out with him at the weekend but couldn’t so she thought she’d ask him along to this. At first I thought she wasn’t seeing him at all this week but I found she’d gone to see him (it’s a 25 min drive to see him and a 5 min walk to see me) yesterday. I’m pretty sure she’ll see him Wednesday too.

She said she’ll come see me today. I know it fits in with her day. I just feel like she won’t do anything that would put her out to see me, yet she goes off to see her other partner and includes him in something because she won’t see him at the weekend and yet she’s already spent time with him. She didn’t spend any alone time with me for weeks but that’s ok with her it seems.

I know I’m being jealous but is it with good reason? I guess I feel like spending time with me doesn’t feel important to her? It feels hard getting excited about seeing her today now, I feel like I’m at the bottom of her priorities pile.