I have always known I was poly ever since my first relationship in my teens. I have attempted monogamy which has not been for me, as so many needs end up being neglected or the demand on me to fulfil my partners every needs is overwhelming and I can't do it, not helped by the fact that I am autistic and I get overwhelmed quite easily.

Things however have changed in my current relationship. I have been with my current primary partner for three and half years and we have been nesting partners for the last two. We have been poly from the start as we both agree it is impossible and unreasonable to expect us meet every single one of each others needs. We both also get a great deal.of happiness knowing the other is having needs met by others.

But things are different for me this time around I love being with my partner, I love them deeply in every way. I love caring for them, sharing life with them, and being intimate with them.

However there are times and they are becoming more frequent where I have the desire to be a nesting partner and primary In so many areas. But then I feel the need to not want to be the primary sexual partner, and sometimes not even the primary romantic partner. I know an aspect of this is to with me being a cuckold, but there is something deeper to it that I can not put my finger on.

I would love to know if anyone else feels this way, or of they even live this way?