It's not really a big deal but I need to let this out.

For quick context, some months ago I was severely depressed and I had to move back with my parents so I became long distance with 3 of my partners/relationships and my long distance/comet partner became my only physically close partner. It was hard for everyone, I was scared that my partners would break up with me, they were scared of the same thing etc etc.

Now my partner is about to move away. I'm about to be long distance with everyone. It's not a problem (I'm scared but I'm okay since I already was long distance with them and now I'm used to be long distance with partners). Also I'm not as depressed as when I had to move'm.

This being said, I'm being "cute" with my partner. I was able to make them a cute gift, I wrote little notes I'll try to hide in their stuff and other "cute" things. I feel a little guilty because I wasn't able to do the same for my other relationships. I did write a cute note for the partner with whom I was roommate at this time but I wasn't able to do multiple things like I can now. And I feel like I'm being "unfair". I know that they don't really care and understand that I simply wasn't able to do that before but I needed to vent this out.

Side note I'm about to make the "same" gift for my other partners since it's a kind of art project anyway but idk since they're about to be the first one to get it it feels unfair