Your input is special. I feel heard and validated. Thank you, dearly, for your time and effort.

I was intending on doing what you were saying. It's funny, she wanted to engage couple counselling to discuss her 'autonomy' in relation to my boundaries. Can't wait for that session to unravel. 4 days ago I decided to take a break so I can think things through and I have a strong bias for ending things. She completely changed when, tangibly and practically, our relationship didn't change, despite me not forgiving her. But the relationship was effectively as it was before. Once she secured security in knowing that I wasn't leaving (she has a fear of abandonment) around the 21st or 22nd of July, that's when she started refocusing her energy towards this 'lost potential'. She can't have the best of both worlds and I feel like she's taking me for a ride and taking me for granted. I don't want to hold my presence in her life as a carrot, incentivising her to do the work. And it's sad knowing that's what it would've taken for her to do it. I want the motivation to develop internally. Anyways, thank you again, dearly.