I (25F) love both my partners (M29, NB24) and I'm the hinge to both and we live together. They get along as friends and we regularly go camping and do thing together and separately. I have a stable lifestyle and have settled into a routine (which neurospicy me loves). I just wish I felt more desirable. It's hard to be the one to initiate everything from dates to sex. I know communication is key and I have communicated my needs, however one partner is asexual (which I totally accept and have never shamed them for it) and the other is studying a very intensive degree and is dead tired all the time (again I'm supportive and understand). I'm not really needing advice, I just need somewhere to put this information out to the world. I love my little polycule and wouldn't change it for the world, I just wish I felt more asexually wanted...