Hello all. I wrote last week about getting my PTSD from DV triggered by an unfortunate series of events.

I have spoken to Chris and I told him I don't logically think he locked me out on purpose. We haven't really spoken beyond that though: we mutually decided to take space this week so we can process.

My processing has led me to understand that I can't really cope with some of the BDSM aspects of our relationship. It's unsettling my nervous system and making me feel anxious.

There may be more that makes me anxious too, in terms of time and communication. So we shall see if those are something we want to work on. I don't know at this point.

But I'm calm and grounded now and taking things slowly and one day at a time.