I have been practicing poly for a little more than two years. I have learned a lot about myself and relationships.

So here is why I’m posting:

My last poly relationship has left me questioning if poly is for me. I participated in a KTP relationship. At first the idea didn’t bother me one bit. I actually really liked the idea, but once I noticed how one sided it felt among other things, I no longer wanted to be part of it. My partner at the time seemed to have trouble making the switch from ktp to parallel. Long story short parallel ended up being even more one-sided. I was left out. I also decided to remove myself since I wasn’t receiving the same type of energy or effort.

It really hurt because when it was KTP we had such a close relationship. Everything changed when I no longer wanted to know about their other relationship anymore. I always told them I respected and acknowledge their other relationship, but I felt that I didn’t need to know about them since I felt like it didn’t contribute to our relationship. Well that all lead to my now ex partner saying they felt like they were walking on eggshells around me. Thus the end of our relationship due to being too scared to make a change and too hurt to start the change.

Support would be nice. I’m left feeling so alone. Like I’m the bad partner. I’m the bad friend. I couldn’t be poly to an extent I guess… idk, send help lol send support. Help me ease my mind.

Have y’all dealt with a similar situation?