I've been lurking a while, hello! Sorry for creep-creepin'! Anyway, ahhh, let me put my thoughts down. My wife and I have been considering polyamory for a few months now. We have like a 95% solid marriage. Similar values, enjoy spending time together, we don't fight very much at all, raising the effin' coolest non-binary 4-year-old.

We're reading the books! (Ethical Slut, Polysecure are the faves so far.). We're working with a therapist to kinda ease us in.

Because, while we have a loving, supportive, happy marriage, we've pretty much never been sexually compatible. At this point it's been YEARS since either of us have had sex (way pre-kid, they're an IVF kiddo). And that SUCKS! There are other reasons we might look for love outside our marriage too. We both have some differing interests that it'll be fun to explore with other folks.

BUT! But. I still worry. So my wife has sorta halfway reconnected with an ex. This guy, listen, I'm way more than a catch than he is. She's often telling me that the more she talks with him, the more she loves me. But he's still offering a little something that I'm just not. Ok! Y'know, that's fine. So she's talking with a potential partner.

I'm 10000% worried about finding someone! We met juuust before the apps really took off, and I don't know if I'm cut out for the swiping world. I'm terrified to have to date for the first time in over 10 years!

Damn, it's real hard to write a whole post with my thoughts because I keep having new thoughts and forgetting old thoughts.

I guess... I feel I need some sort of dialogue to ease into this lifestyle, and I kinda feel all alone in it. That stinks! But, hey, I think I'm cool and fun and I just don't know how to show the world I'm cool and fun anymore.