I have a problem that probably transcends polyamory but affects my current polycule.

I tend to have parallel partners that are open to hear about other partners. I usually don't bring the topic up in order not to make partners jealous of their metas.

To avoid jealousy I especially avoid praising my partner's metas as I often feel it would be insensitive and frankly not needed.

However the problem rises when i need support because of an argument with a partner. I go to my closest friends/partners and start explaining my situation, often painting an unfair picture of their meta.

I really need support in those situations but at the same time as soon as the argument is over I almost regret having talked to my partners/friends about it cause on the long run it seems like I am making them think their metas are bad people when genuinely none of them is.

Due to my lack of praise however they can mostly only see the bad sides of their meta and now I'm left wondering...

Is this healthy? What should I change? Any advice or experience you would like to share?