Well, it's been a hard day so far! Wifes first physical date with another person that she's been talking to for a while on one of the poly dating apps. What's wierd is that I'm not feeling jealous, I am feeling a little lonely mind you but I do get a little of that whenever she is out at friends and I've nothing really to occupy my time! The biggest thing I've felt is worried about her safety, obviously feels a bit like sending her into the wolves den. I remember some unpleasant experiences meeting people off the internet when I was a young adult and that was before we started really hearing all about the horror stories of what can happen!

Feeling a lot better now that she has text me saying she is okay but still can't help myself worrying for her! I know that I can't hold her back to protect her and knew this was coming but it's still a struggle but as time goes on am getting more comfortable with it!

Loneliness wise, would probably be easier if I was having more luck on my own search for new connections, but so far am finding that a lot of people talk about wanting friendships on their profiles but to date its been slow going finding anyone that practices that as I've only had people wanting to talk dirty and exchange dirty pics which really don't find appealing! I'm sure that I'll find someone who wants the same things as me eventually but a bit demoralizing at times! Nothing really going on work wise either, so no there are distractions there at the moment!

I assume that this is a fairly common way to feel the first time your long term partner goes on her first date with another person but I take it that it does get easier in time?