So I'm posting here because I don't really have anyone else to vent to.

A couple of months ago my partner (43m) tried to arrange a nice surprise to a themed club night but unfortunately I couldn't make it to the date of the event and afterwards he told me what he'd wanted to do. He then said, don't worry, we can go to the next one, which is the 5th of May. We didn't say much about it. The 5th of May would be my dead mum's birthday so I took it as a sign that would be a fun thing to do.

So me being me, I organised over night childcare for my daughter and suggested my husband and his mates go check out this car cafe place they've been meaning to for ages and go for a night out out.

Then last week I asked about the plans for Friday the 5th and he told me he is going away for the long bank holiday weekend with his "friend with kink benefits/old kink partner/best friend/romantic friendship/but not partner" person (they don't define their relationship etc etc etc.

He'd forgotten.

I was really upset. And in the moment of being told I knew their weekend was already booked and paid for so there was no benefit to me whinge saying "but we planned xyz". So I didn't say about it. I was just upset and angry with him and he was saying that he shouldn't have to justify spending time with his other person. And I agree. I just felt/feel like an after thought or a back up plan.

So tomorrow, on my mum's birthday instead of dancing and having lots of fun, I'm going to be sat alone at home and sad.

My go to friends all have plans. And Going out by myself isn't my thing and would just amplify feeling alone right now.

I just need someone to say "yeah that really sucks"

Update:

Partner rearranged his day and we ended up video calling for 5 hours. Then Husband unexpectedly rearranged his car meet and then surprised me with cinema tickets to see guardians of the galaxy. I was not prepared to cry that much....

I'm very loved.