I live with my boyfriend and his wife and we have been living together for nearly a year now. Unfortunately over time there have been several moments when his wife has triggered me but because I became reactive I would have to apologize and the cause of me becoming that way would be ignored. Now that I’ve been trying to focus on my mental health more and have taken part in journaling I’ve learned more about my triggers and where they come from which has helped me recognize why some of the things she’s said or done are triggering for me. I sent her a text mentioning this while I wasn’t home bc I do have so much fear surrounding her and while I wanted to discuss it in person I needed a way to bring the subject up to plan a discussion about it so I could mentally prepare myself as well as allow her to do the same. I’ve been home for a few hours working on schoolwork and I just heard her come home and I could hear her crying through the floor/walls and due to past trauma I’m afraid that because she is this emotional that I’m going to be punished in some way for bringing it up even though I just did it so I could try to make where I live feel like a safe place again. Also unfortunately both can get semantic with me and instead of addressing the issue at hand it becomes a discussion on word choice and “how it sounds” which can be frustrating for me as an autistic person bc I often don’t understand what I’ve said wrong despite trying my best. I’m gonna have to go downstairs to talk but it’s scary, I’m hoping my thoughts are wrong and that after talking things will be resolved, I just wanted to vent a little before in case so I can have some support even if it’s just online. Wish me luck