I dont need advice or a lecture, just support I guess please 🥺 Poly is so fucking hard sometimes, I feel like I'm drowning in feelings, and neither of my partners seem to understand how hard it is for me on my side, like because I wanted this Im not allowed to struggle too. My spouse is mono by choice. My other partner has always been poly and doesn't seem to understand how difficult opening to poly is after being monogamous for my whole marriage (15 years). Don't get me wrong, poly has been the best choice, my marriage has always been amazing, but having to open the communication and strengthening the foundation we've done prior opening (years of work) has honestly made my marriage next level beautiful. Our connection has never been better. But it doesn't make all of this easy either. I knew poly would be hard work, I'm not delusional. My new partner is aggressively KTP and fuck, thats even harder to juggle. I constantly feel torn when we're in shared space and i don't know how to balance and make everyone happy. I just feel so alone. When I try to even talk to my friends (mostly those who are ENM (but not poly) I just get snarkly met with phrases like "well things we want aren't always sunshine and rainbows" which feels so belittling. I'm starting to think I was stupid for thinking I'm strong enough to manage this.