Just to recap. I sometimes get a little manic and paranoid. So I started a journey into polyamory with my wife of 20 years and I was all mixed up about it emotionally and posted on here what was in my life at the time and got attacked by people saying what I’m doing is unethical, I’m treating my friend that I am romantic with as a pet. That they hope my life burns up in flames. Etc.

Yes the decision to jump into this was a little premature and maybe we weren’t ready.

I am in love with both of my partners. They are in love with each other. And they are in love with me.

With that being said I still have fears, I am only human.

I think that poly is just so different from what I was expecting that it was hard to relax and let it flow naturally.

Well to all the negative people that made me second guess my own motives.

Thank you for being so blunt and rude. It caused me to step back and really think about what I’m doing here.

I am happy. We are happy.

I am scared of the future as we all should be in any facet of life. But I finally feel like I can live in the moment and block out the chatter and negativity that comes from a place like this.

I am a lucky man to have what I have and I will continue to put in the work to keep this alive.