I am new to IE and almost done with the book. I was hoping the movement chapter would give me some fresh positivity and hope about movement. Instead, I mostly feel stressed.

I live in a large, very very unfit body. I have always, without exception, been the last person at the end of a group walking. I have a lot of shame from the ways people treated me in school, being forced to finish mile rules despite going 30 minutes later than other students, etc.

More than social stigma, my body is simply LAGGING behind at this point. I can’t run for more than maybe 30 seconds to a minute. I have no flexibility, poor core strength, poor balance. My stamina is very low and I quickly run out of energy. Even walking a mile over an hour in cool weather can wind me. Slow, thoughtful movement in the right conditions makes me ache and hurt quickly.

What movement may approach joyful is hard to access. I can’t drive; despite enjoying walking on trails, I can only do it when my long distance partner visits. I used to love swimming, but I can’t access a pool and have no one to swim with (and I’ve forgotten how to swim, literally).

How can I build up strength at home in a way that isn’t miserable? Everything feels embarrassing and tiring. I want to be able to move more and do it more easily…

EDIT: I don’t have the time to respond to you all individually, but the kindness from this community is incredible. These ideas are so helpful, thank you all for your understanding and advice ❤️