I love my job. I've worked there 3 years. I know I'm a valued employee, I'm reliable, I'm trustworthy, and I'm tasked with a lot of responsibility because I'm actually good at what I do. And what I do is important. I've proven my work ethic, I've proven my worth.

So then why do I still feel so guilty for legitimately calling out of work for a lupus flare up?

It's been months since I've called out, but I'm still so scared to even though I'm in SO much pain I can barely walk. My boss and HR know about my conditions, but it still doesn't help with the guilt/shame.

I always hear coworkers and even bosses complaining about people calling in, so I never want to be that person. I don't want to let me team down.

Does anyone else struggle with this? How do you work through it?