Hey folks, ill preface this with saying im not long out of a strenuous alcohol detox that required hospitalization and about 14 days altogether sober now. Physically im absolutely fine-ish. Mentally, not so much. And of course these symptoms could be overlapping with some post-acute withdrawal stuff.

Im not really sure where to start with this other than with l think im losing my damn mind. I feel as though im on complete auto-pilot and everything and everyone just seems so off/unreal, and I feel completely insane myself but im somehow, to my surprise, coherent anytime I've spoken with someone, the odd mid sentence memory lapse now and again permitting. Things I use to enjoy just seem totally unappealing to me at the moment for various different reasons. Ill just use this one as an example, watching TV im thinking things like 'this seems unreal/they're actors/why am I watching this/overanalyzing any little thing someone would do' just constant racing thoughts and complete inability to relax. I guess I have anhedonia also, because my much loved PC hasn't been turned on since I've got home. Im irritable because of these feelings but I hide it very well, and just have this general sense of confusion/that im losing my mind following me around alongside now growing depression that I've fried my brain and this is my life now. My concentration/focus is awful, memory's not great and what should seem like simple tasks (making my bed etc) seem difficult (I can do them no problem though but the anxiety around doing them and the thoughts whilst doing them is what gets me 'why am I doing this, this seems weird/unreal'. All I can really seem to do is browse reddit, that's literally it. Sounds seems too loud sometimes, slight light sensitivity. Going out gets me into a panic and everything seems surreal. My body just doesn't seem like it's mine, I've probably forgot some symptoms but think ive covered most. I wake up so panicky every morning and just think 'not this hell again'. Also quite forgetful as well, and my motivation has plummeted. Im an anxious panicky ball of a man right now, I don't know what the hell's going on with me. DP/DR after some googling seemed like something worth asking this community about. Thank you for reading, any messages would be greatly appreciated.