I miss my 'fix' ever since she was taken so abrubtly from me. Eventually I will be wanting such a relation back again; but in the meantime I "just" crave attention and with that interaction.

My mind / I come up with plenty of tasks, ideas etc for me to do, but they are much less fun to do without someone wanting me to do them and possibly check on them.

So what I think I want...

A group of people interacting with me; Possibly one (or two?) "bosses", that help make sure things proceed in a way that is fun for everyone and maybe help me make the ideas/tasks more excting too. The rest mostly interacting making sure the suggestions happen, checking/watching making sure I do as comitted and of course being able to act/punish if not. The bosses would be the trusted final say in things. -- of course this plan would need a little tinkering to make it suit you

Interaction is important since that is something I miss. The bosses of course, have more freedom, but thus also need to somehow have more trust.

Proof/pics/vids remain within the group, not shared out, no posting/exposure.

We could use my discord bot with tasks, next to random flicks of my mind. Improve it with extra features that the group things are fun while at it. Or a very different way

I get strangely excited and nervous at the same time writing this; and I have no clue how to go about setting this up or finding people even remotely interested.

Please let me know your thoughts, whether you'd be interested or not. Conversation might make my plan better or more clear

Some info on me and my kinks then

I'm a tall slim/average build, 39 year old guy from the Netherlands; Usually estimated to be in my lower 30s. I have a fulltime desk job and live on my own in a house. I enjoy walking in nature, enjoy some tv shows, play video games, read books. I consider myself romantically straight; more bi for this group/kink I suppose. There is also some more info on me in my other posts.

Likes: Denial, Anal, Bondage, Semi/Hidden public (Walks, drives), Games, Light/Medium pain

Dislikes: Some anal, Pee

Limits: Face (especially for group), poo, blood, ageplay, extreme pain/permanent scarring, blackmail, videos/recordings (webcam is fine) - I'd also prefer to remain alive ;)

Toys, I have a lot and this list is likely far from complete but lists most important ones: Ropes, chains/locks, buttplugs, dildos, fucking machine, wand, flogger, crop, paddle, clamps, gags, cockrings...