How do I know I am done?

Because this time I'm finally pressing the charges that I should have last year. He Raped me 16h after I tried to kill myself. I was in such a vulnerable state, and still heavily under the influence of all the downers I took to try and end it. I didn't regain sobriety until Monday, mid morning. I took the pills, Friday night before midnight. There are still heavy gaps in my memory of that weekend. But I remember the act, and I remember feeling so violated, and just sobbing when he was done.

I know I'm done, because it sickens me that he still manages to be u accountable for what he did, and it no longer makes me sad that someone can't even understand what that was like for me.

I know I'm done, because even though I love him, so god damn much, I know that I will never matter.

And with that, I will force him to be accountable and I will make sure that he doesn't do this to another woman, and I will make sure that he is labeled for what he is - a sex offender. And then every future partner will know what he is capable of.

I chose me. I love me. I need to heal from everything he put me through, and this is a very good starting point.