I had Covid this past October and it put me in the ER with double pneumonia, I was convinced I was going to die. It took me 3 weeks to get better and my life continued on. Then 2 months later in December I had my first panic attack one evening, they kept coming every evening. On a Friday I had a panic attack and it literally lasted until Sunday night when I checked myself in a mental health hospital and got a benzo shot. I was put on Lexapro and toughed it out for 5 weeks but it just took the edge off and I still was having a ton of anxiety and needed Ativan quite often I was terrified of being dependent. I ended up visiting the hospital two more times, once after a super bad panic attack and then for depression that came out of nowhere. So now I’ve been on Cymbalta and Wellbutrin for a month and I am SO MUCH better. I’ve been trying to make peace with probably having to be on meds the rest of my life, I never want to relapse and I’ve heard Cymbalta is very hard to get off of. I’ve been exercising, eating better, gave up booze and caffeine and going to CBT groups. It’s been a wild 6 months for me.