Decided this year is finally the year I make things right. I started taking my workout and lifestyle change seriously. I, a 23 male, weighed 234 pounds last January 19, and five months later I now weigh 217 pounds. As a recovering bulimic, losing only 17 pounds in six months is actually a blessing because it means I'm not starving myself like last time. But a part of me decided that I wasn't losing weight fast enough.

If, I was, in fact eating 500 calories less than my TDEE, plus my daily workouts I should be losing more than 2.83 pounds a month. Sometimes I lose around 4000 calories a day (TDEE workouts) cause I have a very active lifestyle. I lift weights four times a week, I reach 10k (sometimes 25k steps) five-six days a week, and I attend a dance class once a week too. If anything, I should at least be lower than 200 pounds by now.

Then, I decided to compute my calories today and it was eye-opening. Yung Jollibee spaghetti na kinain ko for lunch today? 610 calories tanginang yan. AND IT WAS JUST MY APPETIZER! My lunch alone I consumed 2100 calories AND I STILL HAD DINNER. My TDEE is 2300 calories.

My guess is there were days that I eat below my TDEE the workouts made it possible for me not to gain weight with my crazy caloric intake. But this just goes to show you that it will always lead back to calories. Now I have to find a way to eat below my TDEE while maintaining my active lifestyle and feeling full. I don't want to feel hungry 'cause it will really affect my mental health because of my history with bulimia.

If you guys have any suggestions on how to feel full please leave them below. I highly appreciate it. Yung mura please.