I’m annoyed. I have a headache. Probably mildly dissociated… I noticed that I just struggle with conveying it via text… I have no issues speaking about it out loud and words come naturally, yet when I try to naturally think of what to write, what comes out is “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry”. I don’t feel sorry at all :/ opposite of that actually

When forcing myself to write my actual thoughts rn I don’t feel any satisfaction nor even a connection to what I wrote, the headache just worsens. I have to imagine speaking while writing to feel like I did something

I’m guessing it’s just 2 brain parts interacting weirdly but what I wanted to ask about- is there a way to stop this? The migraine kinda pisses me off. I want to enjoy my day. I haven’t been able to deal with it for the last 2-3h. Any tips??? :/ anything that ever worked for anyone?

P.edit: on a side note, it’s fascinating how denial works. I know what I wrote is something I noticed after it happened, NOT just imagined or made up… yet I still feel like “nahh, must have imagined it somehow anyway”. The fact that I can’t feel nor understand the impulse to apologise even when trying to makes it feel like it never happened. It seriously makes sense for it to feel “fake” despite logically knowing that it’s not. Not looking for support or anything, I’m just slightly amused by it.