I failed to recall the last the last therapy session again… same with the majority of last week actually. I KNOW I would remember them if something reminded me of it but even if I have sOmE general knowledge, trying to do it on my own just gets me stuck. I get that weird feeling of my brain pointing in a certain direction which usually happens when I DO actually remember that moment and need to find a trigger. :/ It’s more like the memories from that time period are shattered and need keys to access, not proper amnesia.

I actually did succeed in remembering the last weekend. I got a fake memory when trying to at first (i was pretty sure I must have spent it in my parent’s summer house) but that kept bugging me because I couldn’t figure out the details at all. It took me a while to realise that last week was New Year’s Eve. I invited a friend over for the weekend (for the first time since… forever) and just couldn’t remember it later for whatever reason. Thinking of it as “New Years eve” - makes me remember it perfectly. No amnesia, no emotional amnesia, I remember details well. Thinking of it as “last weekend” makes me confused af. It still doesn’t feel like it happened last week??? More like sometime long ago or unspecified on a time scale :/ just kinda disconnected from reality. I bet the other stuff I failed to remember would work in the same way as well. It’s not real amnesia. I’m not dissociated. My brain doesn’t feel foggy and it really doesn’t feel like focus issues. It makes no sense… what is it even caused by???? :/