Hello there,

22 M, struggling from OCD for about 8 years, diagnosed 3 years ago. Pure O (only mental compulsions).

Taking medication, doing ERP, getting some progress.

However, recently strange phenomenon is occuring in my mind. I cannot quite grasp it so I am curious about your thoughts about it.

So general scheme is as follows:
1. Spontaneous thought (1 second at best)
2. Instant cease of a thought (my mind goes blank like it would reset)
3. Difficulty with summoning this thought (I don't remember this thought - I know that my mind has just went blank and I know that some thought was just before it, but don't try to ask me what thought, I don't know)

If I really try for some time eventually I can more or less remember what caused my mind to go blank. So there is still some access to this thought. However, I must - often literally - sweat myself to gain this access.

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The really thought that is causing my mind to go blank cause anxiety. When my mind goes blank I feel anxiety as well. However, the time this thought is appearing (point 1.) is very short (1sec max) so I am not even able to fully feel the anxiety. Let's say the feeling is semi-anxiety, very small, short and weak burst of anxiety. And then it goes blank.

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Is it some kind of compulsion? Or is it some different coping mechanism of my mind? Or maybe it is something else? If there is any specialist reading this post I would absolutely appreciate some comment.

And extra question: what should I really do when my mind goes blank (happens more often recently).

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Have a nice day