I just wish I was tall and handsome. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and stop me from finding those fucking blackpill forums when I was 14. And here I am, 1 year later. And everything triggers me, even worse, my triggers follow me every fucking single day, if I'm on Tik Tok there's a post about tall cute white bois, if I'm on twitter there's a post about those short ugly guys, if I'm on Reddit there's always that type of comments about cute boys, every one of them is completely different from me. I don't even use social medias anymore, (only Reddit) I uninstalled all of them. One more day, looking at this mirror comparing myself to those guys who get worshipped online, and I cry, cry, cry and cry every day for all weeks of every month since I was 14. It just needs to fucking stop. Here I am, my eyes hurt, my head hurts, my body is trembling, I can't sleep and my anxiety medication stock is over. One more day in this hell and I go crazy.